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and so, im back-a-blogging. everyone says im not really actually blogging. but see, im right here trying to blog something. dont you all think my new template just rocks your socks? i know that because its a blogger.com original. they can never be wrong with their designs. heh

initially, i wanted to use trashyfakesmile in wordpress.com. however, i just dont know why the moment im logged in, i would have that writer's block (and i mean, ALL THE TIME) maybe its just hinting me that the good ol' blogger.com still works as great for me. and hell yes its true.

so, how's everyone? doing fine?

close ones would have known im working in SGH's business office. and at this point, to those who are still wondering what the heck's SGH its Singapore General Hospital. and yes, working is so much worse than doing household chores. its like being fucked so many times you get so numb and wobbly, you just want to quit. and thats how im feeling now.

i feel time is tick-a-tocking and duh, doesnt stop. but somehow rather, i'd like to wish for time to slow down a little (not at work, though) but the overall process of growing up. as a matter of fact, i dont want to grow up just yet. too bad time isn't grandfather who'll love you so much he'll give he world to you.

people are going on with life. they know what they want. have a goal in life. a somebody to like. develop a passion in something...all of a sudden i realised im the only living soul in my years not knowing what i want or like in life. what or who im living for (please do not give me that crap shit telling me that 'oh, yeong we live for ourselves' cos thats quite a fucken DUH answer)

we all know im getting older as the tick-a-tock clock says so. and ever since ive gotten my examination results (i didnt make it into a poly!) im just basically rotting like old cheese in a rat hole. and you know what? the rat hole is what i'd call, society.

sounds awfully pathetic. but guess what folks! this is life in singapore. you work to eat, you eat to live. and now im that rotten cheese in that corner of the rat hole, sitting still not knowing what will happen. i wished i have legs so i can run around to find something that i want in order to survive the society and not to be swallowed up ending up like, thats the end of the story of the rotten cheese!

i do not want that. c'mon i mean, who does?!

and so, i have made a decision after some talk with my BBs. if, my application for poly is unsuccessful yet again, i might just turn to MDIS Mass Communications. i want to move on life everyone else here. i have yet to experience true blue school life like everyone did. and i want it so badly..you know it. please be happy for me, folks. and i know you'll. (:

there's no such thing as a happy ending, but a new beginning.