Are You Afraid?

are you ever afraid of something?

something that scares you so much, you're actually going through the torment for almost as much as 5 years and counting? the stereotypes always say that there is nothing in life to be afraid of and you know what im gonna tell them that they are so wrong. i truly believe that everyone will have at least something to fear about.

my phobia was developed when i witnessed loved ones passing on, funerals, people dying, death. something that we will all undergo when the time comes. i am a necrophobic. well, not specifically one because i am never afraid of corpses or coffins relating to death. however, ironically i am afraid of death itself. and i still do.

the thought of death is always in me. it's mysterious and the unknown. millions of questions to be answered regarding death and not many people (in fact, none) are able to answer all of them. it'll always remain a mystery to all.

i caught The Fountain by well known sci-fi director, Darren Aronofsky and he replied this in one of the interviews about the movie.

First it's 18, then it's 21 then 30 then 45 then 60 then 75. They get further and further those big markers. But turning 30 was when I started to think about it and also my parents both got cancer and were fighting it and beat it, but their mortality started to get to me.

Everything wasn't as hunky-dory like it was.

-Darren Aronofsky who was questioned about where he got his inspiration to do a story about the fountain of youth?

the thought of death takes a toll in my daily life. for instance by just staring into the mirror could make me think about it and i'll just break down and cry; i thought i really needed a psychiatrist to make sure im okay and not losing my sanity.

a matter of fact, i think i am.

so, whats your fear?