its really funny to say this but : i wonder what it's like to truly like and to be liked by someone

i guess it will be a great feeling or otherwise? so anyway, pardon me for sounding so..lovey dovey these days. am going to samme's place in a few moments and i just cant stop thinking. its like too many things running in a frenzy. and sometimes you just stare in the blank like what i did today earlier on my way home.

i dont really know what is going on, either. its just running - like mice on the threadmills, going on and on and on and on...as i feel the future nearing me, i just felt a surge of force sucking me; so hard that i can hardly breathe.

what's going on?