1234 is My Secret

remember i used to mention that i have a thing for the orderly string of numbers 1,2,3 and 4? i think it's hinting me something. like for instance, my pet hamster Fatty died at 12.34pm this afternoon, as stated by my sister.

will be remembered by all of us

...also im into this quirky music video by Feist who sang this song (iPod advert) 1 2 3 4



and with all these playing in my head i cannot figure how i got this number or even do the sum.

anyways, i regretted not getting the tics for ZoukOut (tomorrow!) this year and even though its still not too late, i hesitated in purchasing the tickets because they are like fucking ex; SGD44 or at-the-door sales at what? 53SGD? my desire insisted that i should get the tics however my conscious told me me otherwise. guess conscious was right.

besides the main reason why i wanna go ZoukOut is to experience my favourite DJ, Steve Aoki (who is finally here in SG) who plays indie and runs a well respected indie label, Dim Mak!

nope, he aint no crazy bitch

Dim Mak Fashion Label

shit, i regretted not getting the ticket.

*bangs head on the floor on repeat mode*

what a nice day.

Mr. Tan Turns 19!

to a very special friend, mr. tan

thank you
for the years spent
for the tears shed
for the laughter brought
for the fun we had
for the happy times
for the bad times
it's not going to stop here (goes to the other two, you-know-who)
and you know it

i love you
happy 19th and many more to come
have a blast on your birthday!

:)

Sleigh Bells & Maybe A Valentine Too

i cant wait for Christmas! bet everyone feels the same!

GAP got Gossip Girl and random celebrities to advertise their season collection for Christmas and it turned out pretty good! browsing those pictures really make me happy ;)

click to ENLARGE

another 23 more

and the thing with Christmas is, it'll always remind me of family, friends and love. i thought of my dear cousin at the other side of the globe, England. how nice if she's here with me then we'll joke like there's no tomorrow (cos' only she is one of those in my family who really, literally laughs at almost all my jokes)

and if you are wondering how she looks like...

when Joker met Mr. Peanutman!

trying to be funny

obviously, all the time...

and transforms herself into a ravishing beauty...

uh huh, this is what im talking about

did i tell mention she used to be a vocalist in her band, Ellements which got disbanded? :D

her visit to s'pore during CNY'07 (able to spot me?)

i miss family warmth, which is lacked in mine pretty often, but i believe that warmth will return; AND I CAN'T WAIT!

Nicole Kidman Boobin'

was browsing one of the pages and look who ive spotted? keith urban and nicole kidman all dressed up for the . i paused for a second and this was what ive observed.

1. nicole kidman looks alibino
2. she's much taller than her husband
3. lovely gown and uh...
   

zomg disorientated boobs.

Neon Bible

arcade fire's up to some mischief. click HERE to find out why ;)

Laughing Toes

hello
goodbye!
think its the ending?
ha ha
toes are laughing
why,
its only the beginning
to live with-in
and
suck up to
that joke;
it's life we're talking about

*snaps fingers*

Chuck & Lonely Boy

"Let's strip in the bed and stare each other in the eyes"

its funny how you actually take note at almost everyone in the train. the best part is, you dont really know why you did that. and you know what it actually makes me kind of happy.

chuck & lonely boy

The Masquerade

it was announced that Albus Dumbledore is somewhat gay, i thought it wasnt so bad afterall. i mean, the publicity of JK. Rowling's books will always be an uproar in the world and the entertainment industry. besides, money is always pouring in so... with Dumbledore being gay, its like adding extra cheese on your pizza and making it chees-ier.

doesnt sound nice, but its hilarious i just cant help it (apologies for that Harry Potter fans) ;)

Bald Wig & Colourful Rides

hi all.

ive counted the days and its obvious that i have lost track with time and space. too many things, too many things. november is never better with samme coming home from australia( in a few hour's time!) and my sis turning 14 and more trouble to come. and of course, to those who still dont know i'll be quitting my job at the end of the month. and in the air is the breath of christmas so everything feels good!

ps: by the way, my computer broke down again. and it will not be up till i dont know when too

i love busrides when i saw funny people like a bald guy wearing a bald wig and it looks like a shaft so i called him a dickhead and i saw skies that displayed different pictures. i saw angels with wings and a devil with piercing eyes. its amazing! so, i love busrides.

apologies to people who frequent my blog and knowing nothing is being updated (as prompted in my tagboard), i'll try to update with my mundane life if i have the chance to. meanwhile, to those who loveeeeeeee flea markets, zouk has its very own, Flea & Easy which is held at zouk and winebar itself tomorrow! its 2pm - 7pm and you've gotta be legal..so go figure.

Samantha Turns 19!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA!
AND I LOVE YOU!
FROM YOURS TRULY BACK HOME

and i hope your expression to turn out like this :D

Unoriginal

ORIGINALITY GONE BAD...

top: anya hindmarch's $55 "I'm Not A Plastic Bag" Tote
bottom: Lays going kumpung?

looking fake from a plastic surgery is already quite some big deal. thus so, manufacturers decided to let more daily products go under the knife as well. and i mean, to the extreme. for instance, i saw this "anya hindmarch print tote" in this one day pushcart in Ang Mo Kio Hub last Saturday in a range of colours and its only SGD2! wtf?

and LAYS looks obviously too bloody fake to be LAYS. oh, its seaweed flavour anyway. so, go figure

Measurements

"why is everything in life measured?
education, work, money, sex, things...
thats why life is always short.
because measurements are done;
and obviously, it's proven."

- Yeong

The Ground

things i saw on the ground a week ago.

now you know why they tell you to look up or straight or to the bright side?

see what i mean?

Paranoia

not a good feel afterall.

i swear my guts are running all over. kneading and twitching like a cement mixer. this fear i never expected to return resurrected earlier this evening when i was watching Hulk running in high speed on television. gigantic things moving in the speed of light. (when Hulk was escaping from the clutches of the Armed Forces) somehow my mind just froze and my pulse gradually increases, adrenaline pumping and i thought my head spun a bit.

and i got so paranoid i clung onto my sister and she was wondering whats the big idea. dad said im falling ill and i thought so too. seriously, the whole incident was overwhelming and i can still picture huge things moving in the speed of light. scary shit :(

boooooooooo

Teardrops On My Guitar

Teardrops On My Guitar
by Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me I fake a smile so he won't see. What I want and I'm needing everything that we should be. I bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about and she's got everything that I have to live without. Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny. And I can't even see, anyone when he's with me. He's says he's so in love. He's finally got it right. I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night.

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar, the only thing that keeps me wishing on my wishing star. He's the song in the car I keep singing don't know why I do.

Drew walks by me. Can he tell that I can't breathe? And there he goes, so perfectly, the kind of flawless I wish I could be. She better hold him tight. Give him all her love. Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar, the only thing that keeps me wishing on my wishing star. He's the song in the car I keep singing don't know why I do.

So I drive home alone. As I turn out the light, I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight.

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart. He's the song in the car I keep singing don't know why I do. He's the time taking up but there's never enough. And he's all that I need to fall into.

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

im feeling so lovestoned *lovestoned by Justin Timberlake starts playing by the back* these days. try picturing me playing or repeating those emotional (happy or sad) lovey dovey songs on my itunes. crazy kinda feeling.

something's troubling me. *shrugs* but i dont know what it is

hence i think i have to double the dose.

How Did I Fall In Love With You

How Did I Fall in Love with You
by Backstreet Boys

Remember when,
we never needed each other
The best of friends like sister and brother
We understood,
we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone,
and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble
I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

[Bridge:]
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah
I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall,in love ,with you?

i dont know why but i get so emotionally attached whenever i hear this song. whatever that is, its one of the best songs ever! :)

Untitled

Untitled - YEONG copyrighted 2007

what is there to start when it's already broken?
what's left for me and you, are just pieces of debris
and soon enough, it'll be empty (empty...)
like the capacity the human heart is able to carry
not one, not two, nor three
but the unconditional love people are giving me

when you came in
it was sweet and lovely dovey
then love turns its back on us and it became shaky
i held strong but you went weak and wobbly
weeped and told me that you're sorry

sorry? about what wrong you did to thee?
that you're unable to see?
that your love's for me, not she?
you shut your ears and other 4 senses
ran for your life, dodged for defences
left me stranded without knowing what happened

now you're back asking for forgiveness
and making me go through all these madness?
again, again as the carousel goes
round and round, drugs overdosed

wham! im not as weak as again
shut my eyes and 4 senses
walk away from you, with strength for defences
you're a has been
not any he, she, it,
and hello it's me,
yeong yours truly.

Salad Dressin'

im amused by how some people dress up.

either way too fugly or way too extreme. i have to admit my dress sense sucks sometimes but i know i dont have much of a choice. but then again..

well back to what i was trying to point out.

some people cant dress for nuts. and i have to emphasize that because i think its a pity when they might have the best figure or the style and yet dress up looking like a total moron. and when i mean dress up, i mean fitting into clothes and gears. not make-up.

life for example this girl i saw in the train earlier this evening. i swear she has the rosiest cheeks and a very fine figure. guess how she was dressed?

i swear, her 'suit' was so glaring, i thought i saw stars
*please, throw fuji apples at me (private joke)*

she was good looking but seriously her PJs really made me wanna barf and laugh really badly. can totally impersonate mr.tan's hysterical laughter i tell you. i thought she looked like E.T from outerspace! and poor young lady was speaking so loudly, everyone practically stared at her and she wasn't even aware! even i who was reading knew what was happening.

if you have a figure, flaunt it. no figure, also flaunt it. hot or not? still, flaunt it. its not as though you're going to lose anything. you gain, so why bother?

suggestions? i think what a girl needs basics like:

1. basic tee
2. fitting COMFY jeans
3. pointy toe heels
4. scarf
5. a shoulder bag

so, its that easy! start dressing up well! :)

Aveline Turns 19!

i know my blog rocks (rots)

but at least its rotting for a good reason (oh really.) it seems like blogging era is quite the in thing now and many people are just blogging blindly, stupidly and without thinking the consequences. but then again, i have no say because i might be one of them as well.

so, now i know what i shall do, that is to blog with and for a reason. but whatever that reason is, i'll still stick to the principle - to blog with and for a reason.

which also explains my absence the past week.

so, i met ave and mr. tan for steamboat dinner at marina bay. like, its our maiden time having steamboat since 7 years ago? lol. may it be some talk cock sing song meet up session but i must say the whole catching up was great and we had fun!

we ate like kings
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AVELINE

hmm i wonder who'd be next in line.

1900-identity-crisis

identity.

do you know the real you?
you do?
really?

Annoying Kids & Merlion!

i think many kids these days are having seizures (pun intended)

seizures are caused by abnormal electrical discharges in the brain. symptoms may vary depending on the part of the brain that is involved, but seizures often cause unusual sensations, uncontrollable muscle spasms, and loss of consciousness.

-extracted from some health resource website

get what i mean now?

like for instance, the kids in secondary school or even those in primary school are going abnormal. turning bad. hate studies. bullies. turning emo. getting pregnant. blah the list goes on and that is my main concern.

remember when we're primary 3 when we started to know and learn science, do we even know what in the world is porn? and now kids as young as 12 fucking around getting hangovers and smoking. *scoffs* who knows what happens the next day?

is education given not enough? is education given effieient? should we just blame the parents? or is science making evolution or genes going totally wrong? or something that is so irrelevant that might make sense- is it the food we eat daily have the possibility to actually mutate or (should i use a nicer word), evolve the genes in our kids?

im not pregnant nor am i a mom so i wouldn't know that either. what i know is that kids these days need to be taught, hypnotised(haha you heard me) or to be tamed down a little. at least know the grey between blacks and whites or at least have a little respect. gee

by the way, i was in the train this morning and i witnessed something beyond my imagination. i think i was at the potong pasir station and i stood nearest to the doors so accessibility would be easier. to my horror, when the doors glided opened, this woman, did the Merlion (upright okay)and fuck thank goodness i had not taken my breakfast or else i'd hurl at her too. the worse thing, she just walked away. speakin' of personal responsibility! ha wtf, seriously

Are You Afraid?

are you ever afraid of something?

something that scares you so much, you're actually going through the torment for almost as much as 5 years and counting? the stereotypes always say that there is nothing in life to be afraid of and you know what im gonna tell them that they are so wrong. i truly believe that everyone will have at least something to fear about.

my phobia was developed when i witnessed loved ones passing on, funerals, people dying, death. something that we will all undergo when the time comes. i am a necrophobic. well, not specifically one because i am never afraid of corpses or coffins relating to death. however, ironically i am afraid of death itself. and i still do.

the thought of death is always in me. it's mysterious and the unknown. millions of questions to be answered regarding death and not many people (in fact, none) are able to answer all of them. it'll always remain a mystery to all.

i caught The Fountain by well known sci-fi director, Darren Aronofsky and he replied this in one of the interviews about the movie.

First it's 18, then it's 21 then 30 then 45 then 60 then 75. They get further and further those big markers. But turning 30 was when I started to think about it and also my parents both got cancer and were fighting it and beat it, but their mortality started to get to me.

Everything wasn't as hunky-dory like it was.

-Darren Aronofsky who was questioned about where he got his inspiration to do a story about the fountain of youth?

the thought of death takes a toll in my daily life. for instance by just staring into the mirror could make me think about it and i'll just break down and cry; i thought i really needed a psychiatrist to make sure im okay and not losing my sanity.

a matter of fact, i think i am.

so, whats your fear?

You Stole My Grapes

Oh, Look!

champagne grapes!

sweet and tiny however aint as yummy as the ones ive tried in hokkaido. d:o)

the horror of all horror: deadly 7 sins - gluttony


this picture says it all

Guess!

watch this, pause it halfway and make a wild guess what those are without peeking the rest of my entry.

*do not cheat. i mean, whats the fun of it trying to make a guess when you cheat?*

wait maybe i'll just do the fonts white so in order to reveal the truth, highlight the entire entry to know what the heck im actually trying to let you make guess.


highlight the remaining space to reveal the answer.

so guess what.

we have been fooled.

do you remember the legendary Sea Monkey? that oldschool shit? that we so often try to beg our parents to get for us but they think its all bull? seriously, that video. its the real thang dude.

its so fucking tight, im speechless and still dont understand how those things are able to reproduce within a day?! and the best part of all is, they can be bought from the departmental stores; the package includes 1.tank 2.instructional 3. sachets of secret powder (so they say) 4. apparatus to mix and scoop...and it's instant!

i just cant believe that for almost 10 years i thought this sea monkey shit was all bogus. never did i think it can be so so real. truly amazing.

oh, wondered how did i even think having this entry? thanks to my sister who exclaimed that her school sells some 'water baby' shit that grows on water. and viola i thought of the sea monkey. :)

ps: if you're wondering if sea monkey is still available for sale, to tell you the truth ive no idea myself. think im gon' make a trip down to toys'r'us. it better be there to welcome me or im gon' snap and cry!

When The Stars Fall Down...

Oh, Britney!

i like her. i really do! she fell off the wrong side of the road (damn right) and she might go through shit we all just dont know. and i truly believe we just cant wait for the old Britney to be back. dont y'all think so? lets hope for the best.

you know we miss you.

bad hair day.

you broke a heel, but that's okay.

i might sound pro-Britney but im just trying to express my view that its just a pity people who does groundbreaking music ending up at such state. i mean oops she did it again, and again and again. know what i mean?

okay the point is, leave Britney alone. like what he's trying to express.

So,

"Love has no rules.
It happens when we least expect it,
often when we don't want it,
many times when we can't handle it."

- Brokeback Mountain

people are going missing. why is this happening? what were they thinking when they decided to leave? was it abduction? kidnapped? or did she vanish into thin air?

nobody knows.

i chanced upon my friend's blog, read this entry about a girl of my age who went missing for almost 2 months. you might have seen posters hung about her missing act on the lamp posts along the streets in town and must be wondering is this just another act? or prank? nothing of that sort. i just wonder what make her do that. to run away. was she another troubled person? i really wonder.

anyway if you people seen this girl Felicia @ Gaia, please dial 999 or give chase. below is an article about the disapperance of Felicia and a blog dedicated to her. do read and visit it if you have time.

http://findfelicia.blogspot.com/

Dear with Love

Dearest Mommy,

I don't know if you are able to read this or even receive this. But I'm going to write this anyway and I really do hope you do and can. Because the inside me misses you badly despite the fact I don't know why I won't miss you as much as before.

Sometimes, I wished I had sprinkly wishing dust like the movie I caught with Christel earlier on, called 13 Going On 30. So I can make a wish whereby I have the ability to turn back time knowing what should be done and what shouldn't. But I know this isn't going to happen.

I really wished however you are still here with us, all the time, not dying at such young age and able to give us the motherly love sis and I are yearning. I miss everything about you: your eyes, mouth, laughter, your naggings, continuous scoldings and your conditional love fpr us.

Haven't you realised? It has been the 7th year running Mom. We are all moving with time. Dad is turning 60 in 2 years' time, my sis is undergoing puberty and I, going to hit adulthood. Everyone around me is moving on, except for myself. I want to prove people that 'I CAN' but I just dont' see or should I say find the drive and motivation to. You might be really disappointed and I bet everyone do, because I have gicen up before even trying. But please forgive me because I dont' have the strength and courage I used to possess. That egoistical pride I used to have, is gone too. As if something happened and took it away from me. Give me the strength I need to move on like the rest, Mommy and watch over the good people in my life.

I'm really scared, Mommy. What death is to me. Is it scary? Were you shuddering with fear when you knew you were dying? Was it painful? It seemed like the death phobia is woking on me daily. It freaks me out all the time. Save me from fear, Mommy.

Dad and sis are still doing fine, just that out relationhip with Dad seems to be distanced. Probably because he is so obssessed with the debts C owed that he doesn't spend time with us often as before.

Sis is studying hard, I really hope she is. I really don't want her to make the mistakes I made and I'll make sure she'll do well in her exams. Everyone wishes well for you and I'm sure you know everyone loves you. A great mother, a fantastic daughter-in-law, a caring daughter.

Visit us frequently if you can, and bring grandma along too. I miss and love you both so much. Everything, everything.

Love Sincerely Truthfully Yours,
Yeong (You-Know-Who)